Convicted. As a Spirit and Truth worshiper/intercessor/psalmist, I have literally been walking around in this season with a huge pit in my stomach, growing increasingly worse for quite some time now. I am in angst beyond words over the state of our nation and over this generation, having prayed fervently into and over it much of my adult life. The growing pit in my stomach, i.e. spirit, perceives the growing lawlessness, continuous 24/7 lies and accusations, and the wrong spirit of fear from Covid-19 to how we speak about/to elected officials and law enforcement to how we speak to/about/respond to one another.
Yesterday a Christian friend shared something disconcerting about a major leader in the Body of Christ. Having paid close attention to what the Lord releases through him since the early 2000’s, I knew something about the situation was not being represented accurately or at least not in the way it was intended. We are living in a bizarre culture where leaving out significant pieces of truth, twisting the truth, partial truths, continuous accusations, and entrapment have become the standard. As humans beings not remotely perfected, any conversation with anyone is going to get caught up in this ‘aha – gotcha’ mindset, and then spiral quickly down the path to total ruin or worse.
I was bothered all night about this issue, because the article shared also requested input from Christian friends by skin color. Having spent my entire adult life purposing to be a Kingdom disciple, my ONLY lens for seeing others is ‘God looks at the heart,’ therefore judging people’s hearts and referencing others by our skin color is so troublesome to me because it is simply NOT Kingdom. I get that the culture is going to do that. But the Body of Christ is supposed to be the example…the hands, the feet, the Words, the love of Christ and He said the world would know us by our love…not by our skin color, our political party, our status, or anything else of man’s ways. The current politically divisive movement/agenda lawlessness climate we are living in is grieving my spirit to the point of a groaning I no longer recognize, and it most definitely grieves Holy Spirit.
All to say, inquiring of the Lord about the whole situation, Holy Spirit instantly convicted me. As a daughter of the Most High, me sharing anything on Facebook, Instagram, etc. that even via a reliable fact checking media source, with an intent to point out the faults of or accuse others, even if in the context of being a watchman, is no different than the world. I sensed my Heavenly Father telling me again that the Body of Christ does not remotely understand the love of Christ toward ALL mankind, simply because of the love Christ demonstrated on behalf of ALL mankind. When we discern something false, deceptive, or accusatory, the source is ALWAY the enemy seeking to destroy.
Our time is much better spent and is powerfully more effective through ascending higher – ‘come up here’ – ‘caught up in the spirit’ – and bringing each and every issue before the only One who can turn hearts to Himself…the only One who can heal a very broken and divided nation…the only One every single individual doing whatever it is they are currently doing/saying in order to be heard/make a point, take control, feel empowered, change the course of history and/or change the present is actually searching for…
Every single person in this hour is screaming loudly for the only One who can fill the void, the emotions, the unrest, the disappointment, the anger, the lack, the identity, the notoriety, and the purpose in all that’s manifesting. Yes, we have a roaring lion roaming the Earth seeking whom he can devour, steal from, kill, or destroy…but the only One with infinite supernatural Almighty power has already defeated him and is currently USING him to reveal the multitudes of the corrupt sinful roots needing repentance, forgiveness, and restoration – individually and nationally. All to say, no amount of angst, anger, justification, accusation, fact sharing, etc. etc. etc. will defeat the enemy…only the Body of Christ in intimate fellowship with their Heavenly Father on their knees/faces in Heavenly places in worship, humbly seeking the Lion of the Tribe of Judah to roar in them, on them, through them, over them and for them in the power of His love. His love looks so immeasurably different than anything we could share on social medial.
I am a pray-er – I am an intercessor. I DO pray about all of these issues. Yet, I am convicted even more to pray for those who persecute us – to bless those who offend us – to turn the other cheek – to forgive 70 times 7 – to pray for those whose agenda is to take our nation into one world order and utter darkness of a level only the persecuted Church in many other nations truly understands and intimately knows – to thank the Lord for giving us a a grace period and a leader, who literally in the power of Christ alone, has done much to stand for religious liberties around the world and much to fight against the injustices of so very many – from the unborn to the trafficked to reforming social injustices such as prison reform, create many needed jobs for economic stability for all, etc…and he is hated/cursed by Christians every step of the way…NO ONE is perfected. NO ONE but Christ alone, and in Him alone are we BEing perfected…it’s an eternal process for mankind.
Every treasured individual matters, whether they are on the far left or the far right and everyone in between. God looks at the heart…He sees the poor, the needy, the weak, the broken, the sick, those held captive, the vulnerable…He sees our intention…that is His lens and always will be on this Earth. As sons and daughters this alone should be our lens in the power of His love. Every single sin requires repentance and forgiveness, whether it’s killing someone with our words, killing the unborn, or literally taking the life of another human being. The Body of Christ must come to understand all of this on a supernaturally empowered level. I am quite certain the persecuted Church around the world I was led to teach our children to pray for all of their growing up years understands this on a level we have yet begun to know.
Convicted intentionally to ‘come up here’ and wholeheartedly learn to see/hear/speak ONLY what the Father is saying’ 24/7 as deep darkness continues to cover the Earth. I fervently long to be someone He can rise and shine with His glory through in the midst of it all…the only true position of ‘fear not.’
Only You, Only You, can heal our land oh God…